Any evil could generate from a tiny distraction. Keep away from it and drop a hint to myself consciously or unconsciously. I want to lead a completely different life.
Uncontrollability could strike or even destroy the base of storing the provisions for the future.

Few days ago, our teacher gave us some nursing home reviews which were reviews of the quality of care for older women in long-term residential care. It seemed that I saw through these reports into my future life. I’m such a dissocial person who destined to end my life lonely.

I need a change, at least, in this respect. Look at my life in retrospect! What a mess! Programme for the future from planning every tiny thing in my life and tightly cling to it. A success is the one who influences others rather than being affected by others. Jessie mentioned in her journal that she desired for charisma and cried out for being a leader. Even she was so ambitious, why can’t I? The quality of being charismatic could be built up little be little via numerous activities whether significant ones or subtle ones. I got a plan, for my summer days in the next two months, that I am gonna be a tutor in an English training center in my local city and then idle the dozen of days home together with my family. Tomorrow I’ll go downtown to buy some gifts for my friends and my parents and some necessities for myself. Independency is in the air.

My day is bound to be there, awaiting me.

Where our hands can touch lies our bright future!

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